Tuesday, November 22, 2005

Great. I worked on that stupid paper in the veteran's lab and I saved it to my account when I got kicked out of there. So I go to the library and the paper isn't in my account. I hate this shit.

Crap, crap, crappity crap. I have to do a belated paper today. I decided on the topic of Mina Loy, only because I relate to her experiences with her tyrranical mother. Anyway, I started the paper at home this morning and went through the trouble of saving it to a floppy so that I could bring it to school and finish it, only to forget to grab the floppy. So I gotta start all over again. This sucks.

Thanks again, John. I hope to hell this is true.

Awww, that's a shame. Rest in peace, Sam:


Sunday, November 20, 2005

I've decided, I'm gonna get into airbrushing. I think it'll be way cool. Now to undergo the task of figuring out what airbrush I want. I'm thinking that I want a C02 tank instead of a compressor; I hate a lot of noise and don't want to prompt complaints when I get the artist bug at two in the morning. Anyone who has any info you'd care to share on the subject, I'd love to hear it. :)

My bad, it's Bee Season. Looks like a lot of reviewers agree with me. I like what this reviewer has to say about it, although I didn't dislike it quite as much:

I don't know that I've looked at my watch
or fidgeted more in any movie this year...this film is absolutely painful. It's
a short-film stretched to a feature, laden with special effects, and presented
as a spelling-bee film when it's actually anything but. What it is is difficult
to decipher as well. It feels like a prolonged advertisement for Kabbalah...or
is it? They get into Krishna as well, but doesn't seem to say that either of
them is the answer. I dunno...if they have a message perhaps they should go
ahead and pass out pamphlets with ticket purchase to let us in on what it is.
It's obvious that this film desires to be something incredibly profound, but it
fails in almost every way by being too damned ambiguous. By the time it's over
you've stopped trying to figure out what it's all about and just thank God for
the sweet release that is the end credits. It's a pretty film that has nothing
to say, or just doesn't know how to say it. Or even worse, perhaps it assumes
that its audience will decipher the profundities with ease or that we'll all be
compelled to hang at a hip coffee shop and speak about it for hours...not
likely. I like a film that leaves things open for interpretation, but when the
entire film and every element is left up for interpretation, well that's just a
directionless soup of ambiguity.

I just saw The Beekeeper this evening. Not sure what to think of it. Guess it's the type of movie to see if you like to see Richard Gere cry and/or enjoy ambiguous endings. It's kinda like, why? Why did I see that?

V, in answer to your question of what does Eric knit, he doesn't seem to knit anything. He brings the same length of yarn every time and noodles around on it but never makes anything. Kinda funny really. He's pretty skilled, can construct those turns like when making the heel of a sock. Well, there are several young and attractive women there if he's looking for a mate. Last Monday there was a beautiful brunette in her early twenties who had quite a rack -- yowza. It's funny, with my little A-to-B cups, I'm not comfortable wearing tight t-shirts, but other women don't have a problem with it at all. I'm not judging, I'm just saying that having that kind of chutzpah is alien to me. So anywho, young girl with big rack wins every time. It's cool.

I don't really want to get embroiled in personalities or politics within my knitting group. Once you cross that line ... you know what I mean.

Monday, November 14, 2005

I'm dropping algebra. My studenthood is really not going well at the moment.

My marine corps buddy's email address is "beerdiva." What does that tell you?

I feel silly writing about this ... I've been going to a knitting group on Monday nights and it's been nice. Nice to have companionship with people with like interests. There's one guy there, Eric, who I think, or I get the impression, that he finds me attractive. It makes me feel awkward. He's not bad looking and he's really nice, but ... I'm not ... gah, it's probably a waste of time even fretting.

Saturday, November 12, 2005

Was hot under the collar a while ago. Was driving to the parking lot at the university so I could visit the computer lab, and some architecture students decided to have a tete-a-tete with the car right in front of mine. They stood there and stood there. When I finally honked my horn, the snooty little shitheads said, "Go around." I was so mad, disproportionately mad, that I wished I had a machine gun to mow all those bitches down. I was so upset that I couldn't do anything about those punks except hope that one day it'll come back to them. I tell you what, if I could have gotten away with it, I would have .... never mind.

Got an email through Classmates from a marine corps friend I hadn't heard from in years. I'm a little perturbed, though. I read her profile where they have this insipid Q and A section, and under children she answered that she "doesn't like kids." She has a daughter; what's that about? How old would the kid be now, shit. 16 or 17. Gah, we're getting old. I also hope that my friend hasn't resumed her drinking. She's a full-blown alcoholic. If she's drinking, frankly, I don't want to be in contact with her.

Uh, what else is going on. I just read Memnoch the Devil by Anne Rice. A little mawkish, but a good light read nonetheless. Interesting theories on the afterlife, from a thoroughly Christian viewpoint, of course.

And this evening I saw Derailed. It was somewhat uneven. Not a good movie, particularly, but not quite bad. I didn't sense chemistry between Owen and Anniston, and the actress who played Owen's wife was woefully miscast. I like the guy who played the villain, Vincent Cassel. I'd wait until it comes out on DVD, or catch it during the matinee. So says Newpeep, hear ye. Maybe I should have seen Zathura instead.

Thursday, November 10, 2005

Courtesy of John:

Bush Gives Management a Bad Name
By
Molly Ivins, AlterNet. Posted November 9, 2005.


Recently released emails from Michael
'Heckuva Job' Brown reveal how horrifically he bungled the Katrina
response


As those silver-tongued poets at the
Pentagon put it, we are in a target-rich environment. One cannot -- honestly,
one simply cannot -- pass up the Brownie memos.
The e-mails sent to and from
Michael "Heckuva Job" Brown, head of the Federal Emergency Management Agency
during and after Hurricane Katrina, are too absurd, too
please-tell-me-they-made-this-up awful. As Katrina sent a 30-foot wall of water
toward Mississippi, Brownie, steeped in disaster relief work at his former job
with the International Arabian Horse Association, asked a top aide the burning
question: "Tie or not for tonight? Button-down blue shirt?"
Fashion was quite
the FEMA priority under Brownie. On the day Katrina hit, his press secretary
wrote of his appearance on television: "My eyes must certainly be deceiving me.
You look fabulous -- and I'm not talking the makeup." Brownie replied: "I got it
at Nordstroms. ... Are you proud of me?"
An hour later, he added: "If you'll
look at my lovely FEMA attire, you'll really vomit. I am a fashion
god."
After Brownie's appearance with President Bush at a post-Katrina press
conference, the press aide spotted an emergency: "Please roll up the sleeves of
your shirt, all shirts. Even the president rolled his sleeves to just below the
elbow. ... You just need to look more hardworking. ... ROLL UP THE
SLEEVES."
The only FEMA worker in New Orleans in the first days after the
hurricane was Marty Bahamonde, who e-mailed Brownie describing the situation as
"past critical": people dying, food gone, water going, the homeless and hungry
massing in the streets. Brownie replied: "Thanks for the update. Anything
specific I need to do or tweak?"
Thanks for the update? Anything I need to
tweak?
Three hours after receiving this message about hunger and thirst in
New Orleans, Brownie's aide was on the food case, e-mailing colleagues on the
need to free up enough time in the director's schedule for him to have dinner
because restaurants in Baton Rouge were crowded and "he needs more than 20 or 30
minutes."
This prompted Bahamonde to e-mail a co-worker, "I just ate an MRE
(military rations) and crapped in the hallway of the Superdome along with 30,000
other close friends, so I understand her concern about busy restaurants."
I
guess all that would be a lot funnier if it weren't for what the Pentagon poets
call "collateral damage." But at least we don't have to worry about Brownie: The
administration signed him up as a $148,000-a-year consultant to FEMA.
Our
chief executive is a graduate of Harvard Business School, and his Cabinet is
studded with former CEOs. This was supposed to be the "management
administration" -- government was to be run like a big business, meetings would
start on time, not like those slack Clinton years. These folks are giving
management a bad name.
Back in Iraq, the $30 billion appropriated for the
reconstruction of Iraq is running out. According to a New York Times article on
the report by the special inspector general for Iraq reconstruction, "Officials
in charge cannot say how many planned projects they will complete, and there is
no clear source for the hundreds of millions of dollars a year needed to operate
the projects that have been finished. ... (The report describes) an array of
projects that went awry, sometimes astonishingly, like electrical substations
that were built at great cost but never connected to the country's electrical
grid."
After two-and-a-half years and $30 billion, electricity in Baghdad is
on intermittently, just as it was two-and-a-half years and $30 billion
ago.
So you figure, "Of course nothing's getting done -- there's an
insurgency, the country's sliding into chaos." Let's look to Afghanistan, where
peace reigns. How goes the rebuilding there? Oops. According to The New York
Times, a New Jersey company got the contract to build 96 health clinics and
schools by September 2004. To date, nine clinics and two schools have been
completed and passed inspection.
The company told the Times it is hard to get
good help in Afghanistan -- they have to use Afghani construction companies.
After four years of reconstruction in Afghanistan, the United States has spent
$1.3 billion, and according to American and Afghani sources, nobody's sure where
the money is and how it's been spent -- and the net result is between
unimpressive and pitiful. The agency in charge, the U.S. Agency for
International Development, says things are moving right along and defends its
programs.
One of the funnier legacies of the Nixon administration was an
accounting award named after Maurice Stans, a secretary of commerce and chairman
of the finance committee for Nixon's re-election, who kept suitcases of cash in
his office and pled guilty to five misdemeanors relating to mishandling money.
In that fine tradition, the Bushies should establish a management award named
the Heckuva Job Brownie Prize. It would go to the person who makes the best
suggestion for improving government management -- like, "Roll up your sleeves,
it makes you look like you're working."

I'm such a dickhead. What else is there to say. I started out the semester with four classes, I dropped two, and the remaining two I'm flunking. I just want to stay in bed with the covers pulled over my head for the rest of my life. Sometimes I wish I could quit, which, I suppose, I could. Then I could carry on with the rest of my life with lowered expectations of earning power and personal fulfillment. Fuck fuck fuck.

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Just watched the movie Glory. It's intense. Even though it's over a decade old, if you haven't seen it, you should.

Sunday, November 06, 2005

Happy birthday to me. Thud. Should I go out and get something to eat? Should I go see a movie? Nah, it's too depressing to go by myself. Usually I don't care but sometimes I'm just not up to it.

I haven't seen my brother or niece since early July. Earlier this week I phoned my bro to see if I could go over there this weekend (not even alluding to the fact that it's my birthday; I don't know if he remembers or not). He said that Saturday was out because they were busy but that Sunday was alright. So yesterday, Saturday, I phoned to find out when would be a good time to go over, and my brother hemmed and hawed and said that SIL was taking Niecey to go see her mother. So I didn't bother going over.

That stupid cunt. She *knew* I was coming over and yet she takes her daughter to go see her useless fat cow of a mother. Boy, how nice it is to feel excluded and unwelcome. Fucking bitch.

But in a couple of years or so, or however long it takes me to finish college and leave this godforsaken place, they will no longer be able to take me for granted -- I simply won't be available. And I think that will be better for everyone. Maybe Niecey can come visit me in the city (New York, Paris or Vienna) when she gets older.

How 'bout some comfort food from the drive-through? Okay.

Tuesday, November 01, 2005

Dear diary,

Last night I had some sexy dreams, holy crap. I don't usually dream of intercourse, but last night i did and it was *good.* So today I'm so randy, I sat in lit class and fantasized about what it would be like to get together with a nice, cute and smart guy in there. He'd read me poetry--can you imagine? But I wonder if beneath that mild-mannered fascade, he's an unrelenting tiger. Rrrrrowl! I smiled at him today.

Yours truly,

Newpeep, obviously undergoing a hormonal surge

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