Well, this doesn't bode well. Mike's got marriage on his mind. He would be quite a catch, looking at it in view of a "good provider," seeing as he's so focused and hard-working. I could see being with someone like him; his earnestness, love, intelligence and conversation. But there's a couple of things. It sounds laughable to even be contemplating all this so early, but he plans to run for public office in the future. He could never have me for a wife; some muckrakers would go digging in my past and inevitably find someone who would come forward for a few bucks to say, "Yeah, I fucked her. She was a slut, she was an alcoholic," or god-knows-what.
Then there's the fact that his mom is totally unhappy with him seeing me. Apparently she teased it out of him today and she hit the fucking roof; she's completely against it. His mom is only, what, seven years older than me. She said something like, "I want a daughter-in-law, not a shopping buddy," [as if] and I think she actually forbade him from seeing me anymore. I don't have the people skills to breach such a gap and she's probably right anyway. Mike wants kids and I won't be able to give him any. Plus his family seems to get along well and I don't want to be a cause of discord. Eh, it was a nice fantasy, anyway.
Whatever happened to dinner and a movie?
9:21 PM
Who needs love anyway, I've shed my tears and I've got my Haagen-Dazs triple chocolate ice cream. Did you hear me? Triple-fucking-chocolate. Oh. My. Gawd. If you haven't had any, you're totally missing out.
Undoubtedly Mike's mom feels that with his youth and good looks, he's got many prospects on the horizon and doesn't want him to limit himself. She's not wrong. I also feel her reaction against me is based on perceived socio-economic factors, that I'm a barracuda ready to sink my teeth into her son. Whatever. I plan to elevate my socio-economic level without the use of marriage, thank you very much. But that's beside the point.
Sometimes it's hard to figure out what the Universe wants for me. Am I to be solitary all my life? I guess my first concern is to be financially solvent and fuck the rest.
posted by Newpeep, N.D. (neurotic depressive) @ 5:45 PM
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