I'm almost certain I'm going to break the date with Mike. I just don't feel any sort of compatibility with him at all, and I get the feeling that he has a controlling nature too. Plus there's that intensity I mentioned. I just wanna chill, yo. Also, the way he kept putting his hands on me smacked of possession, and it's false, not spontaneous at all. Try-hard. Then there's the factor that I still feel guilty when a guy pays for my dinner, movie or whatever, that I "owe" him something. I just don't want to go there.
I have to admit, it was easy hanging with Eduard. I just don't feel ready to embark upon anything relationship-wise right now. Friends, sure, but that's never what guys want to hear. I hardly have any friends; hell, I'd be grateful for a friend. Shee-it.
You know, to be completely honest with myself, and I'm not saying that I yam, I never did want to go out with Mike. I was just caught askew when he asked me and then out emerged my recurring problem with the word "no." At least I didn't let him kiss me today when he tried. Kinda gave me the creeps.
posted by Newpeep, N.D. (neurotic depressive) @ 5:17 PM
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